You see, my hubby, Sky, just accepted a new position working for Western Union. In Phoenix, AZ. Exactly 786 miles away (trust me, I've already looked). The high in the summer stays at about 100 degrees or higher for approximately, oh 3 months. I do have to say, though, that the steady winter temps of a balmy 70 degrees are looking pretty appealing after this freakishly cold winter we had this past year. The $40 one-way flights to Phoenix don't hurt anything either, can we say visitors?! (Hint, hint!!)
I'm excited for a new place to live. I'm excited to have more than 2 bedrooms. I'm excited to finally buy a house. I'm excited to no longer be chained to the storage units that we currently manage. Wait, let me change that to a SUPER EXCITED!! I'm excited to be tan all year long ;) I'm excited to play on the playground in the middle of January. I'm excited for all the new things my little family will get to experience together. I'm excited for the new people we'll get to meet (and I'm sure grow to love).
But...
I'm also sad. Sad that we will miss out on things being so far away. Birthdays, holidays, babies being born, fun being had.
Sad that we are leaving our amazing family and friends, so so sad. Sad that relationships will change, especially with our littles and their grandparents.
Sad for my little Selma who came up to me in primary on Sunday on her way to class and, with the saddest face a 4-year-old can muster, said, "Mom, I don't want to get a house. I'm going to have to leave all my friends!" Heart. broken.
If it helps, sweet Selma, I know just how you feel. Heck, I'm even already thinking about how sad I'll be about leaving behind my Bunko group (and who wouldn't right?!)
My main constant in this upheaval of our family is my complete faith and acceptance that this is the right thing for us right now. I feel a calming sense of peace, even in the midst of this utter chaos of packing, organizing, storage-unit-selling, cleaning, summer-clothes-buying, sometimes-dinner-making thing of which I currently call life. I know that being tested and leaving behind things will force me to step outside my happy, little bubble of safety and security. I know that we will be able to grow as a family in a different way living away from all that we know and love. And I'm happy about that.